Wednesday, March 6, 2013

can't shake you.

he was perfect the most adorable smile, eyes that sunk in to me every time he looked at me, and was a jock. accepted by my parents and can't from a great family.
what is wrong with that picture? absolutely nothing. he was perfect.
oh whoops my bad i forgot i left out how at the very and was me who wasn't good enough  for him..
you don't know what you've got until it's gone. i never realized how much he'd ment to me until he actually gone or on to better things.
there something about him i just can't let go of and im willing to do almost anything to forget him.

who hasn't had that bad break up?
can't get over him i see him in halls, his family and friends are everywhere and soon enough I'll be leaving to go to a new school! thank the Lord!! i don't like having confrontation with anyone specially him. we lasted 3months No fights we were perfect then one day he'd just stopped walking me my classes and stopped taking to me. it was weird and i knew something was going to happen..later that night he'd told me i was not the girl for him, and he had other priorities. i accepted it..a week went by i missed him but i was doing well , he texted me saying much he regrets all and wanted me back. i was more than willing to take him back and things were great for the next couple of weeks we're too.then it happened again No talking he'd distance himself from me for about a week and then asked me do you want to work this out? me not being sure of the answers asked him the same question. I regret this so much...he'd replied saying that most of the time he wanted to be able to do him and flirt with who had wanted,and the other part of him wanted to be with me. i was furious and upset i told him that he had all the time in the world to 'do him' because i was done. about a week later i tried talking to him to tell him i didn't like the way we ended and if he didn't want to be back together where we could just be friends.. he said no. i wasn't good enough for him could do better. that was that...

almost 2 months later we're not completely over it all... we both still catch each other's glimpses at lunch and run into each other at the most awkward Times..i miss i really do. and I'm so not over him... 2 insanely hot seniors asked me out and i turned them both down...this is bad...bad bad..